If i had just let it be..it would still have been a blank line but what can i do- i just think too much

I have reserved this blog for some so called out of the box thoughts that often come to my mind and maybe this new post shits the same stuff too.

Now..sometimes we see something and we say.."wow"..and other times lets say 10 years down the line..we see somethng of that sort again and we say.."what crap"...accompanied by a "what a fool was i"..or somethng like that..

I (maybe WE) have heard wise men say "your heart/mind/soul/etc is your best friend..that is--whenever in doubt ask your heart/mind/soul/etc and you'll get the right answer". Now I(/we) have tried this a lot of times in the situations which demanded such "righteous" intervention and yet I(/we) have realized later that we made a mistake.

I have always wondered that if god/something wanted the world to be equal and behave as equal beings then why did he/she/it create so much differences amongst the beings. If however what all created is indistinguishable to him/her/it then why did he/she/it gave us(or whomever)the brains to figure out differences.

I(/we) have seen that as much as I(/we) try to be neutral and blame myself(/ourselves) for something,, i(/we) still want some defense on my(/our) side too--be it self weaved mental defense or even creating an environment such that people around me(/us) come to my(/our) defense.
AGAIN--this defense thingy might be just too much for me(/us) sometime..as in I(/we) could really be right on some issues. Still I(/we) want to first blame myself(/ourselves) and then get the defense mechanism working.

I have always wondered why the learned HINDU leaders have had a strong opinion against COW slaughter...and have been so ignorant to other animals....(yes i do know the gaay hamari maata hai stuff)

I am very patriotic and i fail to understand why--since i very well know that country borders are mere lines on the maps.

despite (or "since" maybe) belonging to the 21st century i still consider myself a wannabe in some way--see i leave no stone unturned in little justifications,,i could have ended that sentence with wannabe FULL STOP...but being the I that I am..i had to add IN SOME WAY.

Now this may be totally exclusive but i have never really felt tensed in my entire life...and yes i don't count Exam/Result fevers or heartbreak traumas as tensions.

I(/we) often look up to others but don't really make any efforts to match them.

Sometimes i really admire someone for some of their qualities but don't really appreciate it to the extent that it may deserve.

If I end this Post right here it would be a NO-smoking(the movie) of sorts....but still, people would find ways to derive something out of it.

Wait,Did i say if?